MY SAD CAFE : Closing Out The 50s

 

24 September 2017: Excerpts of the lyrics from the Eagle’s song The Sad Cafe

As I say good-bye to my first fifty-nine years on planet Earth, The Sad Café, a song by the Eagles, takes on new meaning. It has always been forlorn and haunting; maybe it’s the key it’s performed in, maybe it’s the lyrics, maybe it’s both.  One message is certain: dreams that came true, were forgotten, or unattained; inside my Sad Café.

“Out of the silver light, the past came softly calling, I remember the times we spent inside the sad café”

My past does not call softly. We all have memories calling from our pasts––good and bad––but it is what we choose to dwell on in our rearview mirror that makes a difference in our future’s trajectory. It is difficult to navigate forward if the stare is fixed at what is behind. It’s not always an easy thing to do, especially if one has undergone major traumas or abuse.

“Oh, it seemed like a holy place, protected by amazing grace and we would sing right out loud the things we could not say. We thought we could change this world with words like ‘love’ and ‘freedom’.”

Growing up in the 1960s and 1970s words like “love” and “freedom” were constantly in the evening news. That was the extent of my exposure as I lived in a tiny rural community. Watching on three stations available, I remember watching the protests against the Vietnam War, hippies smoking dope in Haight Ashbury, and scenes of Woodstock on the family screen with Mom “pshawing” and Dad’s “dumb bunnies” filling the air.

In my very early years, scenes of Martin Luther King, Jr., Civil Rights protests, and John F. Kennedy speeches were common. I don’t remember where I was when I heard that news, I was only six years old.

It will take more than mere words to change this world and more than enforceable laws and regulations. To quote Martin Luther King Jr., change will only be “…achieved by true neighbors who are who are willingly obedient to unenforceable obligations.” In other words, change will only come through heart transformation.

“But things in this life change very slowly, if they ever change at all, no use in asking why, it just turned out that way.”

The Eagles are right about this one thing; societal change does change very slowly, but things do change. If you ask why things just “turned out that way’” it might turn out to be related to the choices we have made.

Maslow also believed that life is a series of choices that either led to or moved away from self-actualization; self-actualization is a process—not an end state only.  Although most Christians are at odds with the basic tenet of humanistic approach, I believe Maslow was correct in his theory that life is a series of choices that leads to self-actualization and one can realize their full potential by choice. Yet, I also believe that God has made us in his image; and that image includes the capability of making choices for he instilled in humans this thing called free will.

In three days from this writing, I will be 60 years old––my summer of life turns to autumn. As seasons turn, The Sad Café has been meaningful but, I have yet to figure out if the Sad Café was a literal place or a reference to an ideal. Any thoughts?

For complete lyrics clink this link: https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/eagles/thesadcafe.html

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Blogging: A Renewed Start

I began this blog a couple of years ago as a homework assignment. I’m back––without the motivation of obtaining a good grade, but as a means to write about my life; life as an older woman, student, and survivor. I realize this will severely limit my audience. I harbor hopes that through practice and persistence I can develop skills to discover my niche. A few roles I have played and continue to play are mother, grandmother, and great-grandmother. Thus far, I have survived severe burns, lyme disease, colon cancer, and seven consecutive semesters at Simpson University. I do not brag about survival on my own merit, but as a testament to the power and grace of my Father and God.

 

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Niagara  Falls from the U.S.’s Border View 2009

The photo above states my sentiment regarding posting blogs; but the bird represents the freedom I seek from the vulnerability of blogging: exposing my soul to the world.

Conquering Fears

I have spent the week conquering taxes and confronting a paper and junk filled office: 90% completion of taxes (yes, I filed an extension) and 66.66% completion of tossing junk, shredding files, and tossing some completely. 💕

Tuesday Morning Thoughts

Failure is just another step in the journey. It is a springboard to launch from. Will I meet failure again? Maybe. Okay, most assuredly. But I will pick myself up again, for it is the one who falls, yet rises again to continue on that is a true successor. 

So we say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?” (‭Hebrews‬ ‭13‬:‭6‬ NIV)

Gasp!

imageHave you ever seen such low scores?

The Final Final is Finally Final

Yep! The title says it all. I have now completed my fourth semester at SimpsonU. No more teachers, no more text books, and no more tests for three entire weeks.

It’s time to put the ‘look a lot like Christmas’ in Christmas around this house.  For the past couple of weeks, I have started to decorate for Christmas but at each attempt I have had to pull myself back and get back to books. Consequently, the decor around this place is schizophrenic and chaotic.

The tree is up with about one-half the usual ornaments. It’s a start! I typically like to go all-out with the decor, but this year I have decided to tone it down and spend my time on things that really matter: the presents! Just kidding.

I am looking forward to having company for dinner and for the gift exchange on Christmas Eve. Students typically feel isolated from family during the semester, and I have definitely felt isolated and disconnected from my family – more so this semester than previous semesters combined.

It’s time to reconnect with some very important people. And so, Fall Semester 2015, you can kiss my shiny, white, hiney good-bye!