Since discovering Caroline Leaf’s research in 2014, I have been so intrigued that I did two semester projects about her findings. She is a Christian cognitive neuroscientist that has been exploring the mysteries of the brain, the mind, and how much our thoughts affect our mental, emotional, and even our physical health for more than 30 years.

The first day I participated in her 21-day brain detox program, I was enlightened about a priceless truth. As a member of the new-30-something age bracket, finally, after all these years something clicked.Yes, it’s true – better late than never.

I have been plagued by abandonment issues most of my life. I mean no disrespect to my parents by saying this – they were there physically for me, but emotionally? They were completely off base and ill equipped. Throw in a couple divorces, and other series of events (like being left behind in a fire by one who had pledged their undying love) and there you have it.

My internal dialogue went something like this: I must have done something to deserve to be abandoned. What is wrong with me? There must be something seriously wrong with me.

The first day of my journey with Dr. Leaf, I realized that this was a choice these people had made due to their own inadequacies and failures.  It does not determine my value as a person. I had been letting these thoughts and people determine my value!

I know, I know, after all these years I am finally getting it right. Dr. Leaf’s philosophy is that if you have wired in toxic thoughts, then you can wire them out. She teaches you how to do just that. Visit her at app.21daybraindetox.com

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A Little Info About Me: 

My name is Janet Spoon. I am a full-time college student at Simpson University, located in Northern California. The twist? I am one of the oldest students here. I am Mom, Gram, and Great-Gram. Some of my oldest grandchildren are of college age.

 I have started theRagingSpoon as a course requirement, but I have always wanted to start a blog in the proverbial some day. From the time I was eight years old, I have wanted to be a journalist. Like the elderly couple in the popular children’s movie Up, life got in the way. I don’t know if I will ever be a journalist, but I believe the most important thing is that I am finally taking steps to be able to say, “I am following my dream.”

 TheRagingSpoon may be a bit of a misnomer, for I have learned that it ridiculously harmful to hold onto rage. Use it to your advantage, then let go. Believe me when I say I have had plenty to rage about. I am a survivor: a burn survivor, a cancer survivor and amongst other hazards thrown my way, I have survived three complete semesters now!

 This is not a “Christian” blog per se, yet I do believe in God. I believe he is active in every detail of my life. If I ask Him for help, He is there. I am living proof of His willingness to rescue those who trust and lean on Him.  

 This is a blog in which I hope will be filled with humor, observations, a few rants, a little poetry, and an occasional sprinkling of sage wisdom. Thanks for reading!